This for all my blog readers, followers, friends, haters and stalkers. A lot had happened in the first year of my blog. This blog post is already 4 months late because of the blogger's busy life. Three months before my blogniversary, I have already been thinking of how it will, the contents and the issue I want to feature, and I have composed the perfect post for it.
Why did you start blogging?
It all started with a heartbreak. For the longest time, I would just cry over a pillow stuffed on my face to release all my vulnerability. I was a shock-absorber. But that night, I came across my best friend's blog (she's one of the best bloggers I know!), and it inspired me to make one. In one night, I was able to make two blog posts. After publishing those posts, a big thorn was pulled out of my system. It was indeed an effective tool to release all my vulnerabilities.
After that heartbreak, which we guess you have already moved on with, why do you still blog?
This is the frequently asked question of those who don't know and understand me, and I owe you some good explanation here. Here it is..
We all have our ways and means to cope with problems, heartaches, and pains in life. Some would cling to alcohols, cigars, hurting oneself, not eating, etc. As for me, I found this blog my ultimate best friend in times of despair or uncertainty. There are things that we want to say out loud, but we just cant. Maybe because we dont have the chance or the right people to share it with.
What is the real purpose of your blog?
To release all my vulnerabilities and angst. To share stories that matter. To write things that I can't say but my heart is crying out loud through my hands.
Do you have any style of blogging?
None really but I don't settle for just detailed story detailing. I make sure to be creative on my posts especially the construction and how I want my message to come across. Life should not be plain, let's put some drama.
What do you get from blogging?
It makes me sane. Relief of heart and peace of mind. I value acceptance more and more. And it improves my writing skills because I am afraid of grammatical errors.
Most of your blog posts are about love, especially on heartaches. Why? Is there no other thing you can write?
I am contented with life, but happiness is not there because love is missing. Love has been hurting me. And it really makes me vulnerable especially when you are a HOPEless romantic. I think my friends are getting tired of listening to my misfortunes on love, so I would just run to this blog. Yes, it doesn't talk back at me. It wont give answers to my unending questions, it cant hug nor wipe my tears. But that's what I love about it. I don't need people to give me biased words of wisdom or unending church-like sermons. What this blog does, that beats them all, is that it makes me seek for answers or solutions to my own problems. And this is to see how much I have learned from all my heartaches, to remind me of how stupid I was before and I should not be the same as before.
Why full of bitterness?
To get rid of bitterness, you should let it all out. So I write it all down. Then after, my heart is cleared again, and I would just laugh over my immature thoughts.
They say, you're using your blog to destroy other people? Is this true?
No, it's not. If I were to, I would announce it to everyone. I don't name names on my posts, not because I am afraid, but because I don't intend to destroy anyone and I choose not to. I always make sure that in every post, I would give a realization or lesson to every situation. If people see it that way, it is already their perception of that person - not mine.
Are you aware that people can read your blog posts?
Definitely. But I don't campaign my blog for people to read my posts. I don't beg them to follow this nor understand me. My blog is posted for me to re-read again.
Do you care?
25% of my purpose for blogging is to be able to make an effect to other people's lives. Ambitious it is but it's just a dream not a desire. I was once inspired with stories of people connected and changed because of blogs. And because I always think of writing something with sense and importance. Someday, somehow, there are people out there, in the other parts of the world, who would come across this blog, reading a post that he/she might relate to, be motivated, inspired or changed. There is a possibility, and I will continue sharing because of that.
So far, how were the feedbacks?
So far? Technically, I have 12 followers. But a handful of my posts were with comments. Most of them were words of encouragement and comfort. But surprisingly, there are haters.
Who are these haters?
Those people who care too much of what people think about them. Those people who are insecure and can't say anything good about others. Those people who are in denial that I am one heck of a person with substance, whom they would really give effort of destroying.
Do you care with their opinions? Do you have anything to tell to these haters?
I never said I didn't. But it doesn't make me paranoid. I want to hear it all. I am believer of constructive criticisms and triumphs over adversities. I don't blog to collect good comments and get sympathy.
If you don't like my blog posts, then don't read it. That is so pathetic, right? I don't get the point of people continuing to do things that they really hate and would complain every single time. If I bother you and you want this blog erased, then remove me out of your life. Who wants haters in their life? But this blog stays. Eyebrow raised for you!
Anything more to say to your followers?
I really appreciate those who would place a comment after reading my blog. Sometimes, I feel ashamed when people say they read my blog and would quote lines from it. But I am thankful to those who understand me.
Is there any blog post that you regret?
None. Sometimes, I would regret things that I said when I am able to face a new phase in life. But that's part of it, I could go back to my posts, see how much I have grown or moved on.
What more can we expect from this blog?
A lot of heartbreak stories I guess. Haha. But if along the road, I would meet that guy, this blog will be the first to know.
Any message to your blog?
I have a lot tell to this blog. First, I am very sorry for not consistently updating you. And for forgetting the password lately. But thank you for always being there in times I am very weak. Thank you for absorbing all my bitterness and anger. Thank you for being my best friend when I am alone in my room. Let's not mind all the haters, they are just envious of your deep substance. I will keep you. Mwaaa!
Happy BLOGniversary! :)
