HUGS

"PEOPLE ALWAYS LEAVE" - Lucas Scott, One Tree Hill


Czarinna Paola De Castro

That name is synonymous to TRUE FRIENDSHIP.

It is always true that in life, finding a true friend is one of the most difficult thing to do. I have lived that life. I have met a lot of people, developed friendship with some, and had sustained loyalty with some as well.

I have lost friends in my life. Regrets of losing them? Not at all, because at least some stayed. Like what i always say, I MAY HAVE FEW BUT AT LEAST THEY ARE TRUE. -And I would settle for that.


INNA

Friendship can lead to deeper relationships. Sometimes, you would foster a deeper connection with someone and comparing that person like your sibling already. Those are the people you just don't consider a friend but a LOVED ONE already.

For me, I consider those people the friends I am afraid to lose. The people I know life wouldn't be the same without them. People I would stick around no matter and I would choose over other things in life even love.


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What will you do if your most loved best friend would migrate? And it is in weeks time? And you're not good? COMFORT, please?

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HUGS

I have a one true friend, I will never find myself on fight with.

She is the complete opposite of me. Quite, timid, soft-spoken and suuuuuper nice. That's why our friendship is noticeable because despite our differences, we click! We never find ourselves in a dull moment. I am the joker, she is the laugher. I am the speaker, she is the listener. I am the crybaby, she is the comforter. I am imperfect, she is the ideal girl.

She is the person I have spent my 24/7 days in highschool, literally. We are always with each other but we never get tired of talking and seeing each other's face. Even in weekends, we still text and talk.

She is always my PARTNER. We always work together in projects or in partner activities. Even in triad activities, we insist that we'll be partners. We always have the fail experiments and funny outputs. Atleast, we have satisfactory grades for those.

She is my SISTER. She is the person in the whole world who knew about my family problems. Whenever I feel bad, she is just one text away. I am luck enough for she is my ever comforting friend. She never advices but she listens -that's what sets her apart from the rest.

She is my self-booster. She is the ideal girl whom everyone admires. I have a lot of imperfections but her humility is overwhelming. She is my "kakampi" in everything. Never did she sided with anyone else. She is the perfect example of a friend who will have your back no matter what.

She is more than ALL these. Describing her and our friendship will take me years. But then, I have to say, she is the person I am afraid to lose.


REALLY : If I could stop their leave, I would do so. If she will come back, it better be soon and on March 2012.

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I have less than a month to spend with her. If you have the same time left, how will you spend it? As for me..


HUGS, sige next week labas tayo :)

ANSWER

how do you know if someone likes you or he is just flirting with you?

if anyone knows, KINDLY TELL ME.

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The story started with a heartbreak. I found myself comforted by a guy and then there we started to be friends. Yes, we're friends. We talk a lot and have fun a lot. Honestly, there was a time I used him to get over the recent heartbreak I had. But using him suddenly turned him using me..

During our sleepovers near UST, we often see each other late at night. Grab a food and just talk. He would always be there to accompany me. Well, I would ask his help and he agrees to do so. But we often quarrel on petty things. Countless are the times we would argue and I would ask him to leave. But there would at least one of us who would give in to reconcile.

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I like HIM. I like him not romantically but I like him because I am comfortable with him. It's not love, I know that for sure. It's the feeling when you always want to talk with a particular person everyday, everytime. I am happy just talking and being with him. So there, I repeat, I like HIM.

He on the other side, would tell my friends we are just friends -which is true. But would say he is not closing his doors for any possibilities it would be more than that. I know he's not ready, I am not as well. We have priorities, specially me, but he's still there being ever sweet and caring.

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Actually, he's not the type of guy I would settle with after all. He's selfish. He always want to talk about himself. He would always seek for care and understanding. And I let him be that to me - I don't know why.

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Then we had a big fight. He's so emotional and sensitive, and I couldn't stand it anymore. So I pushed him away. And he did walked away.

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I found out that he got the number of my closest friend. They turned to be avid textmates. I warned my friend not to reply back. She said, it's too late because they are already textmates
Reaction: All I can say OK.

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The next day, I saw a text from the guy on my friend's phone. His name was Krabby (WOW!) So I asked, why Krabby? She answered, their endearment blah blah blah but it was nothing, and i shouldn't worry.
Reaction: Shit. After a night, endearment? Krabby and Patty? What the heck? OK, let it pass. I asked her to go be friends, of course that was sarcastic.

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At our English final examinations, she is seated behind me. I asked how are they etc. The talk went this way:
H: Magkatext pa rin kayo?
D: Oo, pero wala na gurl
H: Ano pinagtetext nyo. Kwentuhan mo ko Gurl!
D: Eh wala na after this day, don't expect na (kwento she means)
H: Bakit?
D: Nagkita kami, awkward kami.
H: Nagkita kayo?!? (SHOCKED)
D: oo..
H: Nagkasalubong o sinadya?
D: Inaya nya ko mag icecream ngayon pero wala lang yun.
H: Ahh inaya.. bakit dimo kinukwento sakin yan.. (turned my back)
Reaction: I can't help myself but I somewhat bursted out and had a monologue explaining to her why I feel bad. Icecream is our usual thing, and it is now theirs -WOW! I felt like crying because I can now feel that there is something, that it is more than that.

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That same night, I texted the guy. I told him to stop with whatever his trip was, without mentioning any name. He immediately replied that if it was about my friend, he is willing to stay away and so on.. We fought and harsh words were already because I really can't control my anger anymore. Then my friend texted, "wag ganyan.." Question marks??! She accused me of not listening to her, of not trusting her, that's why she don't want to explain anymore.
Reaction: WOW! If trust is the issue, I have given more than that. If me listening, I went beyond, I even asked her every time what is happening. But she was the one who refuses to tell. I really felt bad of looking like I was wrong..

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The next day, me and my friend were on the same event. She was the one aloof. And those with me with even noticed it. She didn't even bother to come over and talk to me regarding our arguement last night.
Reaction: Now, tell me what am I supposed to feel? She is aloof, why? Because she is guilty? I know she has a lot of pride in herself, she really don't know how to say sorry - I know that. But if it was nothing at all, she should've felt comfortable being around me with our other friends.

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FRESH NEWS FROM A RELIABLE SOURCE: The guy admitted to my friend that he is attracted to her that's why she stopped that something with us.
Reaction: Bullshit!! Fuck!! Wait, let me check. It's like a week since they knew each other? or like less than that? And wait, where did I knew about this, from someone else. Fuck! So all this time, it was her?!

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I feel bad, disappointed and betrayed.
I love HER. She is one of the few I treasure my friendship with. I trust her- so much.
But with all these things, don't I have the right to know?
She knows my story, our story. But she seemed to ignored?
And up to now, I am certain they still have communication.

These are to blame the guy actually.
He is a flirt - I now agree.
He used me - proven
He took me for granted - certain
He's an asshole - TRUE

He has a huge ego, and i'll let him be drown to that.

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I am super hurt. And I can't even function well.



Whatever happens next, I will let it be. But I am certain now that I won't make the first step. I am trying to exude my humility but it stops itself. So I will just stay here, not wait, but enjoy the next to happen.

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LEARNED:
Value those who stays.
Trust is not measured with being curious. People ask to know. Answer it, then doubt leaves. Refuse, doubt grows.
It is possible for love to ruin frienship.
Sorry is not enough when things are unforgiveable, so STOP.
Time will never heal wounds.



now answer my question on top.