Hi Blog,
I went to a Christian church today at CCF Alabang because of an invite from a girl friend. I never expected to feel so overwhelmed with the worship and preaching of the pastor. I even cried during the prayer and sang out loud like I know the song forever. But I really felt so good and renewed after hearing the gospel in a deeper but simpler way.
The gospel was talking about letting go of things pulling us down. (How timely, right?) The pastor even prayed that it is only He that can take of our hearts and not hurt us.
With the things that happened these past months, both heart and family problems, I have learned so many things. One of which is to really lift all my worries and anxieties to God. I know I havent let go of some things really, but the pain I still face everyday, I have learned to surrender it all to Him and find ways to be happy again. As much as I trust the process, I am beginning to trust Him more than anything.
I have been hearing so many things lately because he's been talkng about me and his feelings to people. Well, I dont know his reasons for doing so. And people around us, being the normal them, are telling it to me. As much as I want to believe them, be happy or sad, I have learned to block it all. To just focus on myself. To be patient that if there's something i need to hear from him, it should come from him.
I am doing just fine. Really fine. I have never felt so fulfilled in my life. There are still anxieties, but I have been getting by and surviving each day with a happy heart.
