His birthday, my deadline.
Letting go was never easy, especially when you have hold on to someone so tight because he gave you a hand of promises.
It is difficult on my part because I had faith in him that he'll be there. Sounds weird, for a fact that we were never in a relationship. But the comfort I feel whenever I am talking to him, is undescribable. I feel so safe. I feel so happy that nothing would go wrong. I feel "kilig" like there's no tomorrow. I feel stupid knowing everything is inconsistent.
I trusted him and he broke it and there's nothing left anymore.
If he only knew how much I had fallen for him. How much liked him. How much I wanted to take care of him. How much I am willing to wait. How much I am hurting everyday. How much I miss him. How much I learned to love him..
His absence made me wanted him more.. But seeing him from afar, made me fall broken.
I wanted him to explain. But last Friday was enough already..
It is easy to detect when someone appreciates you, isn't it? When someone is really sincere with their words. That was the problem. If he only knew, the effort I gave with the "FAIL GIFT" I gave him, I wish it would drown him in his conscience.
I love you. I still do.. but I have to..
Let go. Cut it. Move on.
