20 March 2011

BREAK-UP

Everything in here are opinions that don't matter but realizations that cuts through.

There is a couple who are good friends of mine, who became close to my heart The girl was already a friend, while the boy became one because of the girl. They are one of the most coveted boy and girl in our college, both good looking with outstanding personalities. They are indeed a power couple.

I spent time with them everyday, that is why I can claim that I was a witness of their love. With my own eyes, I saw how the boy is so in love with the girl and how the girl in return appreciates the guy. Their sweetness kills me so much but I just couldn't be so happy when I see how they give love back at each other. That sometimes I say to myself, I want my relationship to be this way too.

The girl is more famous than the boy, and her personality is more overpowering that overpowers as well their relationship. I have seen how supported the boy was. He was always at the shadow of the girl, behind the curtains, waiting afar , so proud of her girlfriend. He was understanding- that is the truth no matter how she denies it. Sometimes it irritates me when the girl complains when the boy is getting clingy. But who am I to be affected?

Sadly, their relationship ended just a month ago. It was a huge drama and turmoil for everyone. They were both my friends, so when I knew that they were having problems, I don't know whom to first listen with. But I know for sure, he has done nothing to hurt her. Why? Because he loves her so much that leaving her is not an option. As I have listened to the whole story, that until now hasn't ended really, I am pissed off of how things have changed and how a fool she was.

I didn't forced myself to be with the boy all throughout his heartaches, but he needs someone, he needed us- his friends. We heard his anger but deep down those anger is pain - we can feel it. We couldn't control his bitterness because there was a basis. He has the right to. And sometimes, his bitterness would be so true that you can attest to it because you saw it with your own eyes. Sometimes, it would kill me to see the guy crying his eyes out and all he can do is punch something to let it all out. It was painful.

I love her, she is a real friend. But I have learned to love the boy as my close friend too. I am not in the position to take any sides, but with what happened I am on his side and will be in his defending team.

She might have personal reasons that I don't know yet, but what she has done is really unacceptable. She might be crying herself to sleep that we don't witness, but how can she even have the guts to look so happy infront of everyone when she just broke her relationship? Nice pretensions that is. She left him on his knees , with a bruise on his cheek and heart, and went away holding hands with this rich-not-good-looking-guy.

(Well, I apologize for judging the guy, but who would blame us who don't know him but makes an impression that he's a relationship wrecker. He knows she is taken, and there he goes with his invites for dinner, how educated of a Thomasian. He should know his limits if he is a real man)

This just in: the girl sent the boy a message containing how she have thought of how much she is missing. The he was the best she ever had and that she is asking for forgiveness though she can't bring back the past.

Seriously, is that the girl everyone is looking up to? After all the pain she caused the boy? Not only the boy, everyone around her who believed in her that she can't even kill a fly. Didn't she even realized that it is not just the boy's heart she destroyed, but his family's trust and love for her. Even us, her friends, trusted her so much but she also lied to us. And she can't even look straight into eyes when it's clear and visible that she is flirting with a new guy.

Don't everyone hate it when people just realize someone's worth when it's all gone? Stop me. People know it but they just got used to having that person around that they take them for granted. That they fool around and brags that they will still have that someone to come back for. Well, everyone has their own deadlines, people get tired.


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TAKE IT ALL by Adele

Didn't I give it all? Tried my best, Gave you everything I had, Everything and no less, Didn't I do it right? Did I let you down?

Maybe you got too used to, Having me around, Still, how can you walk away, From all my tears? It's gonna be an empty road, Without me right here,